big girl

i think it was just last week i was thinking, "no way, how can she be a year old already". but this week while i was at home with my sick little girl, she and i were in bed waking up and having a bottle. she was sitting up and started to point at the closet and try tell me something. she's been making the most adorable noise lately. i shouldn't call it noise, she's talking, i just can't translate it yet. it has a lot of "guh" and "l" sounds. guhlahgu laguh, little tessa words. they are so sweet and it sounds so much like a language. she looked so big and grown up in this glimpse. i caught a sight of my big girl to come and i can only say i love her more each day than is humanly possible.
she's the most amazing gift i could have ever been given and i'm so grateful i'm able to be her mama. i never thought matt and i could create something so flawless and sweet. it only makes my faith in God more powerful, that i grew her. that two tiny little things i don't understand came together and she was grown in my body. how amazing! nothing as perfect as her could ever have been made by two people alone. God is powerful and he makes the sweetest gifts. OH how i adore her.
she's gotten to the size that i can squeeze her a little. big hugs are to come. i can't wait to give her such big hugs that she says, "mmoooom stop. you're squeezing me too tight" mmmmmm! i love hugging her. i want to go wake her up right now just to snuggle. if i could just put her back to sleep easily, i'd wake her up.
but it's time for bed for us. no baby snuggles for now.